Sunday, December 23, 2007

New Year's Resolutions

I know, I'm a week early, but I'm minimizing Christmas (other than a wonderful celebration with M and her family on the day itself) and maximizing the new year. Some years I don't make resolutions but this year I decided to make one to improve myself and another to make myself more happy (which would also be improving myself, but it's not as hard).

The self-improvement one has something to do with forgiveness. I'm still trying to hammer out what that means, how to reconcile the decision to forgive with one's irrational feelings, etc etc. Meanwhile, I'm practicing on road rage. Instead of cursing or calling people (from within my car, I don't yell it out the window or anything) "stupid," I'm trying to think of them as simply making a mistake, or having some reason for driving so slowly at rush hour with 87 cars behind them, or needing to get to the hospital as they speed by me on the interstate. I'm working on it. For one thing, I don't think it's right to judge people as stupid or not stupid. Yes, I know that intelligence exists at higher levels in some than others. I just don't think someone not being as smart as someone else is a good reason to be dismissive of them, and I want to stop doing it (although I really only do it in the context of driving).

Whew. Now for the fun resolution, which is to do something creative every week. I've decided to exclude blog posts, even though they are creative (or can be), in order to get myself to do something more visual. I have decided to share my efforts on the blog, at least partially to show people that you don't have to be good to be creative and to get a great deal of pleasure out of creating. I think too many people have the creativity beaten out of them in their school years. I sure did. But as an adult I've learned how to play more with art supplies, and what fun it is to do so. I often don't carve out the time to do it, though, thus the resolution.

And here is today's excursion in watercolors:

Two extreme close-ups:

PS Yes, I'm feeling better. Yesterday was a sad day because of a funeral. But I was sad, not depressed. I had an iron infusion on Friday. Evidently the restless legs (no, it's not a joke diagnosis) was mucking with my sleep enough to exhaust me. Plus the new meds have possibly kicked in.


mamaheckberg said...

Really liking the art work! What a good resolution--give me a ring manana, banana.

Catherine said...

Thank you for liking my art work. I like you!

June Cutoff Cash said...

Cool! I like your art!

When someone is driving slowly in front of me, I try to imagine that they have a kitten in the front seat, that they just rescued from the road.

In other words, they may have stuff going on we do not know anything about. Their slowness (or anyone's annoyingness) isn't about us.

Easier said than done at all times, tho.

Catherine said...

And thank YOU for liking my art!

You're right about the driving thing. My personal philosophy is that I don't want people driving any faster than they feel comfortable driving.

This is hard to remember when I'm late, though, and I'm always late. Then I have to remind myself that it's not the other drivers' fault that I'm late, and even if I wasn't stuck behind a slow person, I would be late anyway!